May 15th
11:34 PM
11:34 PM
It’s kind of exhausting being a narcissist with crippling low self-esteem.
For no_senpai (ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ♡
10:05 PM
I’m out of cigarettes. sob sob.
saltmaid replied to your post: Remember when I was 13 and I thought encyclopedia…
oh my god i was the same way i thought that place was hilarious a haven of comedy goldI wan’t to cry every time I think back to it. I even followed the Chris-chan saga.
Mudkips and pedobear and swastikas ohh jesus fuck. ;-;
no.
Chris-chan actually is funny though. he’ll never not be funny. He’s not even pathetic, it’s gone way way way beyond that.
It’s true.
(btw you are ghostnoting :S)
11:39 PM
Haha I think I should do this every monday, it’s kind of therapeutic for me in a weird way.
11:32 PM
a message from Anonymous
Last year, my best friend and I had a platonic/surreal love for each other (being both semi-crazy, and bored of humanity). Problem is, I let my irrational paranoia and over-thinking ruin my sense of reality: I started to believe that she absolutely hated being with me/found me unutterably boring. I became terrified of speaking to her. Anyways, I've since changed schools, but I cannot stop being overwhelmed with pain and guilt and thoughts of her (everyday)...help? (sorry if I didn't make sense)
I understand were your coming from, I feel the same way with a few people. It sounds to me (speaking from experience) that your paranoia comes from some sort of borderline or anxiety disorder.
I constantly feel everyone around me is taxed by my presence, that they all hate me. I’d go into bouts were I would disconnect myself from absolutely everyone for long periods of time, hoping that they would eventually forget what I was like. You just got to reassure yourself that their suposed feelings are more than likely factious, even though that is extremely hard. You can’t let it rule your life, even though it’s so easy to slip into those ruts. If they didn’t enjoy you in the slightest, the wouldn’t bother with you, that has to mean something right?
Just because you switched schools that doesn’t mean the relationship has to end. It will be less involved sure, but something is better than nothing. If you were as close as you say you were, she’s probably feeling some heavy stuff in regards to the relation as well. It won’t hurt to try, worse case scenario things aren’t the way they used to be, but at least you’ll have the closure.
I hope everything works out with her, keep your chin up, don’t let the paranoia make up who you are.
10:56 PM
a message from ithecowardlylion
Ah. si si. that was basically my perspective. im trying to give her as much time to cope with what happened, though, to be fair, it was only a casual relationship she was in, nothing serious. I figure i'll see what happens at prom and hang out with her a few times and guage how things are going from there. And fortunetly, i loathe the nice guy card, so i'll hopefully avoid pulling it.
Good plan!
10:44 PM
a message from Anonymous
i think i am in love with my AP us history teacher! who is at least ten years older than i but is super sweet and cute and she watches dexter and doctor who and arrested development :c i wantn her to be mine
Oh my goodness, well…
There’s this thing called statutory rape that you should read up on. Also you should consider that it’s most defiantly against school code to have relations with students, so if you wan’t her to continue to be your teacher I wouldn’t.
She sounds like a babe none the less, and it’s alright to have high school fantasies lol
When you’re 18 and you still feel the urge go ahead, but by then you’ll be in a whole new period of your life and probably won’t give her a second thought.
10:32 PM
a message from ithecowardlylion
So im going to prom this saturday (despite my complete disdain towards the idea) with this really rad girl that im into. im mostly going because she got fucked over by some douchebag and was miserable because she really wanted to go. so i asked her because i wanted to see her happy. so now im going. The problem is i have no clue how she feels about me and all the voices in my head tell me theres no way shes into my shit. on top of all that, all these feels are making me break out like a bitch.
The fact that she was up to go with you at all after all that is a good sign maybe. Personally I’d be to bummed to bother.
Maybe she’s into you, only time will tell I guess. I wouldn’t try to impose unless the moment is right. I know if I was dumped the last thing I would wan’t is some guy who I like in a platonic way was trying to scope me out.
Don’t go and play the ‘nice guy’ card either, if she’s not interested it has nothing to do with you or how you acted. There are just some people she’s not interested in, which I’m sure is the case for you too.
If she is that’s great! Just feel out the evening, show her a good time, with no ulterior motives, if it happens it happens. Don’t get me wrong, there are times when you should be impulsive and make your intentions clear, but tonight is not the night. It sounds like the prom means a lot to here, so please don’t make advances unless they’re warranted, that would bite.
I hope that helped, and I hope everything looks up for you man!
